Trying to pull you along with me....

Color: Green

Defintion:This is the color of balance and harmony. From a color psychology perspective, it is the great balancer of the heart and the emotions, creating equilibrium between the head and the heart

In Fall of 2009 I decided I wanted to go to a 4yr college. I was already in a 2 year college but something hit me one day while I was in class. It was a thought that I can do much better than this. I was working two jobs and going to school. I was on the deans list and still making it but something inside told me your better than this. You have so much more to offer the world then to just be a dental hygienist working under someone else. I was taking a psychology class at the moment and everything about that class intrigued me.

So I took it upon myself to ask my friends how do I get into college and how do I apply for everything I need to get there. Just like that I applied and took off to school. I did not know a thing about how finical aid worked or how to apply for loans of where to go to get student housing or even how to register for class. When it was move in day I moved myself in while everyone had there parents to help them move in. I bought my own groceries and just like that I was a first year college student. 

I had no clue about time management and I didn't have a car in high school but I had one after I graduated High School so when I got to college it was "whats the move." My first semester in college was a blur because that's how messed up my grades and mentality was. I just wanted to party and have a good time because I felt like I missed out on everything in my high school years. I eventually went down a bad road and I was on academic probation and making my way to suspension. That next semester I just moved back home and I vowed I was not going back to school because they were trying to put me in traditional. So i stayed home and worked a whole year and a half. My mom was worried that I wasn't going back to school but I knew I was I just needed time to think it thru. 

I came back in the summer of 2012, mind you I was still on academic probation. When I tell you I came back on a mission I was not playing any games. I made the deans list that semester and I'm still in school til this day. I'm graduating this Fall thank God! 

What do You Mean I'm not Graduating..

Shade of Color: Red-It’s the color of passionate love, seduction, violence, danger, anger, and adventure. 

As I held the phone with my academic adviser on the other end of the phone sitting on the bed in total shock. A million things were going through my mind. I hope hes joking on the other end of this phone. What am I going to tell my family??? They just bought their tickets. I better be walking that's all I know.  What the Fuck!!!! I didn't hear anything else but come to my office tomorrow morning so we can talk about it. I told him better yet I can meet you in your office today, What time are you leaving. He told me four o'clock and I threw on my shoes and rushed out the door. I got to his office and he asked me to have a seat as he explained to me why I would not be graduating this semester. 

  He told me the reason I will not be graduating was because of one class. I told him I checked my balance sheet and he checked my balance sheet so how was this possible. But then I remembered last Fall semester I was in his public policy class registering for my other classes while he was teaching. He stops in the middle of class and tells me I'm only teaching this class this semester so if your gradating in the Spring you might want to sign up now. So, I had to switch my schedule around to add that class on. Mind you the Theories and Methods Part II is the class that I took off my schedule to fit The Public Policy class on to my schedule. It was still on my balance sheet but I did not have a real grade for the class. 

  I tried everything I could to see about graduating. I talked to another teacher, I tried to see if the teacher that was teaching the class at the time could give the class to me as an independent study. That fart didn't budge. She kept telling me that it was too late, its five weeks before graduation, blah blah blah... There was nothing else I could've done. I had to take that "L". Now that I think about it it just wasn't in God's plan for me to graduate just yet. You see, my actual expected graduation date is Spring 2016 and I'm on time I'm actually overtime. But it is so boring down here at this school that I'm ready to go and get away from here. I've been down here since 2010 and I was still about to do a graduate application to stay down here for grad-school but I think God is telling me no. I was about to turn in the application when something else happened. I found out that its free for MSW at Clark Atlanta and that's right up my alley because this has prolonged my stay here and I'm ready to move back home to Atlanta. 

 The only problem is there is no place to call home because my mom moved to VA. So that's my next dilemma but I'm going to put it in God's hands because he would not steer me where he does not want me to go.  

Blogging and Vlogging

Shade of Color:Yellow It’s the color of happiness, and optimism, of enlightenment and creativity, sunshine and spring

I recently started vlogging because I needed another hobby to keep my mind going and my thoughts free. I know its weird that sometimes I find it easier to vent to a camera then it is to express my feelings to people. I found this out the other day when I was depressed and expressing my feelings to the camera. It actually helped me feel a bit better. I also wanted to start back blogging for my own personal reasons.1) is to have a video log to look back at my life and see how far I've come and 2) for networking purposes in the near future. 3) this is my senior year and I want to have a video reminder of my last semester at school. "Speaking of school" I have another story to tell but I guess I will save that for my next blog post. 

Another Random thought that I had is while reading my last post I realized that I'm pretty okay at blogging. My only problem is that I was have to be persistent with my post and videos. So I'm making a vow to myself to make sure I have a video and a blog posted about my week. I figured its better to write and vlog about my life then it is to just live through the motions.

Thailand

      Shade of color : Blue is the color of the sky and sea. It is often associated with depth and stability. It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom, confidence, intelligence, faith, truth, and heaven.

    There is something that is calling me in Thailand. Either its the beautiful crystal clear beaches or for the peace that the teachings of Buddha brings. Either way I'm about to work my butt off so I can head there as soon as I get my passport. Here's a look at what I have been studying on YouTube to figure out where I'm going to go when I get to Thailand.

 This is Marianna Hewitt a Vlogger on YouTube who has inspired me to go to certain spots in Thailand.